you're just not that into me

dont mind the ugly picture, cause i cant think of putting another picture and i thought this one isn't so bad
life would not be the same without being loved. you have no idea what you’re missing if you’ve never had it.

my holiday was okay, my life will most likely be the same, even though i pray hard for it to be great.
actually i kind of wish i would’ve just stayed home, i would’ve avoided disappointment.
i kind of hate when people don’t turn out to be who you thought they were, or who they seemed to be during your first impression of them. i should simply finally learn that it is not good to have expectations. but i can’t help it. maybe there is just nothing to do about it.
maybe i’m just looking for something too great, maybe i’m the problem after all, maybe i just cannot be satisfied with anything or anybody.
i don’t like when things start getting old, when relationship slowly dies, when people change.
i want things to be exciting and fun, all the time. i want people to be how i like them to be all the time. i want to be contented with everything.
but this is me asking too much.
although i feel like it’s not that much.

i’ve got nothing planned for the day. i’m kinda glad about that. i missed not doing anything.
i’m quite confussing myself, aren’t i?
i want attention and people around me, but then wanna be alone.
oh, god.

listening to : band of horses - on my way back home