Rabu, 09 Juni 2010

pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere



finally, the make up test is over and i really worried about the score. i'm not even sure what my score gonna be. but one thing for sure, my math score gonna be BADASS ;) just wait. ini penilaian gua selama ikut make-up test :

- english : gigit yang buat soal
- sosiologi : sembah yang bikin soal
- biologi : kebiri yang buat soal
- agama : sembah yang bikin soal
- geografi : gigit yang buat soal
- fisika : kebiri yang buat soal
- math : bakar yang bikin soal

kalo diliat dari kesimpulan sih gua kea=banyakan gabisa pas ngerjain itu test, tapi semoga aja tang ting tung gua bener semua. harapan gua cuma satu : naik kelas dan masuk ips. karena gua udah muak dengan fisika kimia bio -__________________- doain aja deh semoga naik kelas karena gua takut aja ga naik kelas gara gara math. tapi amit amit juga sih. but now i'm gonna scream " THE EXAM IS FINALLY OVER AND HOLIDAY IS COMING OUR WAY "

Senin, 07 Juni 2010

hello, future boyfriend

earlier i was got a mental disorder. on everyone, everything, all of the past events for the last few months and stuff. it made me think. why do i want what i want? do i want what i want? should i take a step forward? or should i really be worried about if i need to be taking a step backwards?

i feel like i am just stuck in neutral. i know what i want to do and also what i should or could do. i'm not sure which i need to be doing though. which one will be more beneficial. will they be equally beneficial? or will neither path pay off? what are my motives? i would really like to answer these questions. however, i'm not sure that i can. i'm not kind of that " possitive ". this is a very interesting part of my life and i am eager to see how it will play out.

until then, i think that in order to be able to answer these questions, i will need to regroup, reorganize, and re-prioritize. i have been a little bit irresponsible lately and i would really like to put more effort into important things, like putting things in priorities. i should slow down and think about everything. i should slow down and enjoy simple things. i should probably also slow down and think about what i say, what i do, and how i spend my time. from now on, i am going to try to make a conscious effort to focus more on what is important and less on what is not and maybe trying to be more serious.

if you read all of that, then you got a big smooch from me.

dot dot dot dot dots

hi, my name is melissa and i don’t take showers
just kidding
but not really



i was going to say something
but i forgot what to say
i am giddy
quite giddy
yes, as giddy as a

...giddy thing.

i bet you dont even know what giddy means? ha! i like it when i'm smarter than someone. or at least that's what i feel.. in someway.. whatever. pfft

the fact is, tomorrow i'm gonna have 3 tests
and i haven't opened my book


i wonder, how shitty the score gonna be?




listening to : ke$ha - blah blah blah

i'm claiming this the top of the world

...and to answer the previous question:
"can you still fall asleep when you fall apart?"




the answer is "yes. i just had a good sleep. not the best though, but enough to keep me going"



:)

:)

Kamis, 03 Juni 2010

life tips



* just copy-paste this from one of my favorite blogger. read this well and maybe you can learn more about guys. happy reading!

99 facts about guys bold on the "this guy" facts

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.


4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."


23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.


56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.


58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.


62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.


67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.


73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.


79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.


89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.


96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Selasa, 01 Juni 2010

can you still fall asleep when you fall apart?

-boys with skinny body
-boys with normal fingernails
-boys who listen to indie and metal
-boys who have quite a " style "
-boys whose into movies
-my room all tidy
-being in so many places, in a very short of time
-my stomach hurts like hell
-want seaweed right now


yeah. you learn a lot from them.


lately i've been thinking
and
i think
God works in reeallyyyy mysterious ways
i dont like it



ahlkscvbnxvbnsfyhwsdzfhdfj;


-12

:D
night,
or
so long
or whatever
bye


i will continue writting more later, time to go. i want to have some sleep after this rough day. i have a feeling that maybe tomorrow gonna be a decent day. well. maybe

:>




listening to : sirenia - meridian

Selasa, 18 Mei 2010

If you look at the scratch, you fail to see the diamond


boy- i missed you baby, where have you been?

girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.

boy- oh really? why?

girl- oh nothin, just annual shots, thats all.

boy- oh

girl- so what did we do in math today?

boy- you didnt miss nothing that important. just lots of notes

girl- ok good

boy- yeah

girl- hey i have a question ……

boy- ok, ask away

girl-how much do you love me?

boy- you know thst i love you more than anything

girl- yea?

boy- why did u ask?

girl- *silence*

boy- is something wrong?

girl- no nothing at all

boy- good.

girl- how much do you care about me?

boy- i would give you the world in a heartbeat if i could.

girl- you would?

boy- yeah.of course i would *sounding worried* is there something wrong??

girl- no, everything's fine……

boy- are you sure?

girl- yeah.

boy- ok…….i hope so.

girl-would you die for me?

boy- i would take a bullet for you anyday, hun

girl- really?

boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???

girl- no im fine, ur fine, we’re fine, everyone's fine.

boy- …………ok

girl- well i have to go i'll see you tomorrow at school.

boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.

girl- yeah, i love you too, bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:

boy- hey, have u seen my gf today?

friend- no

boy- oh.

friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.

boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.

friend- well dude you know how girls are sometimes

boy- yeah.but not her.

friend- idk what else to say, man.

boy- ok well i gotta get for english class, i'll see ya after school.

friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.

THAT NIGHT:

-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-

girl- hello?

boy- hey

girl- oh, hi.

boy- why dont you come to school today?

girl- uh…….i had another doctor appointment.

boy- are you sick?

girl- um i have to go, my mom’s calling on my other line.

boy- ill wait.

girl- it may take a while, ill call you later.

boy-alright,i love you hun.

very long pause*


girl- *with tear in her eye* look, i think we should break up.

boy- what???

girl- its the best thing for us right now.

boy- why???

girl- i love u.

click< THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.

boy- hey dude

friend- hey

boy- whats up

friend- nothing, hey have you talked to ur ex lately?

boy- no

friend- so u didnt hear?

boy- hear what?

friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u……

boy- dude, wtf tell me

friend- uh….call this number.​ 433-​555-​3468

boy- ok…………

BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

-ring-
-ring-
-ring-

voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.

boy- uh…….i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.

voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info)

voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.

boy- really? what happened??? how is she???

voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.

boy- WHAT HAPPENED??!!!!

voice- please come by sir and you can see her, bye.

boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*

BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

boy- omg are u ok??

girl- .

boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!

girl- i……….

boy- you what?? YOU WHAT???

girl- i have cancer and im on life support

boy- *breaks into tears*

girl- they’re taking me off tonight

boy- why didn't you tell me???

girl- i wanted to tell u but i couldnt

boy- why didnt u tell me????

girl- i didnt want to hurt you.

boy- you could never hurt me

girl- i just wanted to know if you felt about me as the same i felt about you.

boy- ?

girl- i love u more than anything, i would give you the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.

boy- ………..

girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u

boy- then why did you break up with me?

nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.

BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.

but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY

the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand. with a note in the other hand
THE NOTE SAID: i told her i would take a bullet for her. just like she said she would die for me.