If you look at the scratch, you fail to see the diamond

boy- i missed you baby, where have you been?

girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.

boy- oh really? why?

girl- oh nothin, just annual shots, thats all.

boy- oh

girl- so what did we do in math today?

boy- you didnt miss nothing that important. just lots of notes

girl- ok good

boy- yeah

girl- hey i have a question ……

boy- ok, ask away

girl-how much do you love me?

boy- you know thst i love you more than anything

girl- yea?

boy- why did u ask?

girl- *silence*

boy- is something wrong?

girl- no nothing at all

boy- good.

girl- how much do you care about me?

boy- i would give you the world in a heartbeat if i could.

girl- you would?

boy- yeah.of course i would *sounding worried* is there something wrong??

girl- no, everything's fine……

boy- are you sure?

girl- yeah.

boy- ok…….i hope so.

girl-would you die for me?

boy- i would take a bullet for you anyday, hun

girl- really?

boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???

girl- no im fine, ur fine, we’re fine, everyone's fine.

boy- …………ok

girl- well i have to go i'll see you tomorrow at school.

boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.

girl- yeah, i love you too, bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:

boy- hey, have u seen my gf today?

friend- no

boy- oh.

friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.

boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.

friend- well dude you know how girls are sometimes

boy- yeah.but not her.

friend- idk what else to say, man.

boy- ok well i gotta get for english class, i'll see ya after school.

friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.

THAT NIGHT:

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girl- hello?

boy- hey

girl- oh, hi.

boy- why dont you come to school today?

girl- uh…….i had another doctor appointment.

boy- are you sick?

girl- um i have to go, my mom’s calling on my other line.

boy- ill wait.

girl- it may take a while, ill call you later.

boy-alright,i love you hun.

very long pause*


girl- *with tear in her eye* look, i think we should break up.

boy- what???

girl- its the best thing for us right now.

boy- why???

girl- i love u.

click< THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.

boy- hey dude

friend- hey

boy- whats up

friend- nothing, hey have you talked to ur ex lately?

boy- no

friend- so u didnt hear?

boy- hear what?

friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u……

boy- dude, wtf tell me

friend- uh….call this number.​ 433-​555-​3468

boy- ok…………

BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

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voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.

boy- uh…….i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.

voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info)

voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.

boy- really? what happened??? how is she???

voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.

boy- WHAT HAPPENED??!!!!

voice- please come by sir and you can see her, bye.

boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*

BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

boy- omg are u ok??

girl- .

boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!

girl- i……….

boy- you what?? YOU WHAT???

girl- i have cancer and im on life support

boy- *breaks into tears*

girl- they’re taking me off tonight

boy- why didn't you tell me???

girl- i wanted to tell u but i couldnt

boy- why didnt u tell me????

girl- i didnt want to hurt you.

boy- you could never hurt me

girl- i just wanted to know if you felt about me as the same i felt about you.

boy- ?

girl- i love u more than anything, i would give you the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.

boy- ………..

girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u

boy- then why did you break up with me?

nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.

BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.

but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY

the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand. with a note in the other hand
THE NOTE SAID: i told her i would take a bullet for her. just like she said she would die for me.

do you believe in tarot? i do.

Card 1 (Judgement) : How you feel about yourself now »

You feel this is an end to an era or at least a certain phase of your life - you are taking stock and looking where you want to go from here. This ending is not one for regret but for rejoicing. Soon you will enjoy the rewards for your past efforts. As with any period of endings, many opportunities will present themselves and the choice that you make will have far reaching implications that could change your life dramatically. Any legal issues should be ruled in your favour.

Card 2 (Justice) : What you most want at this moment »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is for a fair and right outcome whether it concerns relationships or business affairs. You feel that you are in the right and that any decision or agreement to be made should be in your favour.

Card 3 (Temperance) : Your fears »

You are afraid that this period of harmony in your relationship or life in general is not going to last. Perhaps you are afraid a rival is going to cause conflict or already is and threatens to upset the peace and tranquillity you are enjoying. Any quarrels will be short lived so just try and enjoy the moment for what it is. If life is not joyful and tranquil at the moment you may fear that it never will be, take heart and be patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

Card 4 (The Tower) : What is going for you »

Sometimes sudden disruptive change is inevitable, and as painful as it may seem, we come through it a stronger and better person. No matter how disruptive things are at the moment, or if you feel life is really against you, re-evaluate and move on - often a new direction can bring new opportunities you never dreamed of. If you have been planning to move home you will be experiencing setbacks.

Card 5 (The Sun) : What is going against you »

You may experience a few delays on your quest for success and achievement but don't worry, you'll get there in a blaze of glory. Success may go to your head a little so a little modesty wouldn't go amiss. Other than a few minor delays, look forward to a period of joy and happiness. If you are experiencing problems with conceiving a baby, The Sun often heralds good news around children and a much wanted pregnancy or birth of a longed-for baby.

Card 6 (The Hierophant) : Outcome »

Help is at hand. If you want wise counsel and moral guidance put your trust in someone you have a lot of respect for. Don't allow others to influence you too much with what they want you to conform to, be true to yourself. When considering your options go with tried and tested traditional values, rather than the unconventional novel approach. For example marriage is more likely to be your desire than a living together situation.

now playing : orianthi - according to you

ashes

it was just another day: a day lost in mysteries,
unanswered questions, some fear and mist.
it was just another day but those words burnt
me to ashes, i felt life twisting my bruised mind

i felt the heat searing my hands and shy eyes.
there was no shelter and there was no shield.
shadows opened the dark, swallowed songs.
what was half hidden was suddenly revealed.

i was split up between the present and the past.
old deep memories of what can't be ever found
engulfed me again, drowning me in a time of bliss.
and what remained me of you, i buried in your ground.


now playing : sophie ellis bexter - bittersweet

love cancerous

love cripples the heart.
emotions fall apart,
as your voice calms me.
this truth you'll never see.

i shake inside in terror,
as my path to you becomes narrow.
love is meaningless apart;
i'll die seeing you depart.

you know none of this though,
for the feelings i've never showed,
nor will i ever tell you
because i've never seen anything true.

so love dies today.
i fade into the shade.
you go back to your home,
leaving me with these thoughts to roam.

i dont want to kiss anyone. but you, i fucking love you

" give me all my love and when i shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars. he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with the night and pay no worship to the garish sun "


listening to : cut - plumb

got me walking to the moon

I LIKE :

- t-shirts and dress
- midnight drive
- midnight calls
- vampires
- movies
- shoes
- internet
- free stuff, free samples, free free free
- sunset
- concert
- metal ( esp gothic metal )
- family and friends
- dark things
- going to places
- comeback home reeeaaaalllly late
- rain
- tears
- being missed
- dogs
- good lyrics
- wake up late



I HATE :

- smoke
- snail
- cowok jual mahal dan suka pamer (sombong)
- jazz and blues
- diburu buru
- di atur atur
- school
- ingkar janji
- early wake up
- day time
- kecoa terbang minta diperhatiin
- lupa bawa sesuatu dan sadar pas jalan udah lumayan jauh
- gak punya duit
- gak punya pulsa
- menunggu
- sendiri (kadang2)
- clubbing
- sunlight and other brightness
- people who doesn't take me seriously
- ada yang mau cerita trus bilang "gak jadi"
- banyak nyamuk dikamar
- romantic peeps
- summer
- orang sok alim tapi dalemnya bejat
- orang genit & sok eksis

listening to : suicide silence - no pity for a coward

a whole lot of nothing

go away bad thoughts. you stress me out. you make me restless. you make me worry about my future. you make me wonder what is going to happen within the next few years. i don’t want us to go through another pessimist way like i did a while ago. it would be awful. i prefer my life that happen few years ago. things need to go back to normal. so please, thoughts, pack up your stuff and leave. you can perhaps go on Mars. i heard there’s life up there, but i don’t believe it for much, so i doubt you will be bothering anyone. heard me? good good.

my pessimist thing is seriously stressing me out more and more everyday. what can i do? i want them to get the hell out from me. oh yea, i haven't tell you what is going on today. something really broke my heart. twice. you don't have to know why and yet i still don't know what to do. i'm trying not too fucked up about it. perhaps i must try become more religious and pray every night. wish me luck :P

and i just find a song that sound pretty cool. i like the lyrics. the lyrics is so well-written. so this song is called ' by your side ' performed by tenth avenue north. check this out!

why are you striving these days
why are you trying to earn grace
why are you crying
let me lift up your face
just don't turn away

why are you looking for love
why are you still searching as if I'm not good enough
to where will you go child
tell me where will you run
to where will you run

and i'll be by your side
wherever you fall
in the dead of night
whenever you call
and please don't fight
these hands that are holding you
my hands are holding you

look at these hands and my side
they swallowed the grave on that night
when I drank the world's sin
so i could carry you in
and give you life
i want to give you life


cause i, i love you
i want you to know
that i, i love you
i'll never let you go


you know i could played this song for a hundred times (oke ini agak lebay) but seriously i really love this song and i think i'm gonna dying if someday there's a guy came up to me and sing me this song. awwwwh so schveeeet <3 anyway gua capek pake inggris melulu daritadi. sekarang udah malem dan gua udah ngantuk sih daritadi tapi hastrat buat bikin blog udah menggebu gebu daritadi jadi yaudah yak gua mau bercinta dulu sama guling dan bantal gua lol. lights off!

listening to : nightwish - beauty of the beast