Rabu, 28 April 2010

do you believe in tarot? i do.

Judgement
Card 1 (Judgement) : How you feel about yourself now »

You feel this is an end to an era or at least a certain phase of your life - you are taking stock and looking where you want to go from here. This ending is not one for regret but for rejoicing. Soon you will enjoy the rewards for your past efforts. As with any period of endings, many opportunities will present themselves and the choice that you make will have far reaching implications that could change your life dramatically. Any legal issues should be ruled in your favour.

Justice
Card 2 (Justice) : What you most want at this moment »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is for a fair and right outcome whether it concerns relationships or business affairs. You feel that you are in the right and that any decision or agreement to be made should be in your favour.

Temperance
Card 3 (Temperance) : Your fears »

You are afraid that this period of harmony in your relationship or life in general is not going to last. Perhaps you are afraid a rival is going to cause conflict or already is and threatens to upset the peace and tranquillity you are enjoying. Any quarrels will be short lived so just try and enjoy the moment for what it is. If life is not joyful and tranquil at the moment you may fear that it never will be, take heart and be patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

The Tower
Card 4 (The Tower) : What is going for you »

Sometimes sudden disruptive change is inevitable, and as painful as it may seem, we come through it a stronger and better person. No matter how disruptive things are at the moment, or if you feel life is really against you, re-evaluate and move on - often a new direction can bring new opportunities you never dreamed of. If you have been planning to move home you will be experiencing setbacks.

The Sun
Card 5 (The Sun) : What is going against you »

You may experience a few delays on your quest for success and achievement but don't worry, you'll get there in a blaze of glory. Success may go to your head a little so a little modesty wouldn't go amiss. Other than a few minor delays, look forward to a period of joy and happiness. If you are experiencing problems with conceiving a baby, The Sun often heralds good news around children and a much wanted pregnancy or birth of a longed-for baby.

The Hierophant
Card 6 (The Hierophant) : Outcome »

Help is at hand. If you want wise counsel and moral guidance put your trust in someone you have a lot of respect for. Don't allow others to influence you too much with what they want you to conform to, be true to yourself. When considering your options go with tried and tested traditional values, rather than the unconventional novel approach. For example marriage is more likely to be your desire than a living together situation.



now playing : orianthi - according to you

Selasa, 27 April 2010

ashes


it was just another day: a day lost in mysteries,
unanswered questions, some fear and mist.
it was just another day but those words burnt
me to ashes, i felt life twisting my bruised mind

i felt the heat searing my hands and shy eyes.
there was no shelter and there was no shield.
shadows opened the dark, swallowed songs.
what was half hidden was suddenly revealed.

i was split up between the present and the past.
old deep memories of what can't be ever found
engulfed me again, drowning me in a time of bliss.
and what remained me of you, i buried in your ground.


now playing : sophie ellis bexter - bittersweet

love cancerous



love cripples the heart.
emotions fall apart,
as your voice calms me.
this truth you'll never see.

i shake inside in terror,
as my path to you becomes narrow.
love is meaningless apart;
i'll die seeing you depart.

you know none of this though,
for the feelings i've never showed,
nor will i ever tell you
because i've never seen anything true.

so love dies today.
i fade into the shade.
you go back to your home,
leaving me with these thoughts to roam.

Sabtu, 24 April 2010

i dont want to kiss anyone. but you, i fucking love you


" give me all my love and when i shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars. he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with the night and pay no worship to the garish sun "


listening to : cut - plumb

Jumat, 23 April 2010

got me walking to the moon



I LIKE :

- t-shirts and dress
- midnight drive
- midnight calls
- vampires
- movies
- shoes
- internet
- free stuff, free samples, free free free
- sunset
- concert
- metal ( esp gothic metal )
- family and friends
- dark things
- going to places
- comeback home reeeaaaalllly late
- rain
- tears
- being missed
- dogs
- good lyrics
- wake up late



I HATE :

- smoke
- snail
- cowok jual mahal dan suka pamer (sombong)
- jazz and blues
- diburu buru
- di atur atur
- school
- ingkar janji
- early wake up
- day time
- kecoa terbang minta diperhatiin
- lupa bawa sesuatu dan sadar pas jalan udah lumayan jauh
- gak punya duit
- gak punya pulsa
- menunggu
- sendiri (kadang2)
- clubbing
- sunlight and other brightness
- people who doesn't take me seriously
- ada yang mau cerita trus bilang "gak jadi"
- banyak nyamuk dikamar
- romantic peeps
- summer
- orang sok alim tapi dalemnya bejat
- orang genit & sok eksis


listening to : suicide silence - no pity for a coward

a whole lot of nothing


go away bad thoughts. you stress me out. you make me restless. you make me worry about my future. you make me wonder what is going to happen within the next few years. i don’t want us to go through another pessimist way like i did a while ago. it would be awful. i prefer my life that happen few years ago. things need to go back to normal. so please, thoughts, pack up your stuff and leave. you can perhaps go on Mars. i heard there’s life up there, but i don’t believe it for much, so i doubt you will be bothering anyone. heard me? good good.

my pessimist thing is seriously stressing me out more and more everyday. what can i do? i want them to get the hell out from me. oh yea, i haven't tell you what is going on today. something really broke my heart. twice. you don't have to know why and yet i still don't know what to do. i'm trying not too fucked up about it. perhaps i must try become more religious and pray every night. wish me luck :P


and i just find a song that sound pretty cool. i like the lyrics. the lyrics is so well-written. so this song is called ' by your side ' performed by tenth avenue north. check this out!


why are you striving these days
why are you trying to earn grace
why are you crying
let me lift up your face
just don't turn away

why are you looking for love
why are you still searching as if I'm not good enough
to where will you go child
tell me where will you run
to where will you run

and i'll be by your side
wherever you fall
in the dead of night
whenever you call
and please don't fight
these hands that are holding you
my hands are holding you

look at these hands and my side
they swallowed the grave on that night
when I drank the world's sin
so i could carry you in
and give you life
i want to give you life


cause i, i love you
i want you to know
that i, i love you
i'll never let you go


you know i could played this song for a hundred times (oke ini agak lebay) but seriously i really love this song and i think i'm gonna dying if someday there's a guy came up to me and sing me this song. awwwwh so schveeeet <3 anyway gua capek pake inggris melulu daritadi. sekarang udah malem dan gua udah ngantuk sih daritadi tapi hastrat buat bikin blog udah menggebu gebu daritadi jadi yaudah yak gua mau bercinta dulu sama guling dan bantal gua lol. lights off!



listening to : nightwish - beauty of the beast

there are no words for this




never say i love you
if you don't really care

never talk of feelings
if they aren't really there

never hold my hand
if you mean to break my heart

never say forever
if you ever plan to leave

never look into my eyes
if you telling me a lie

never say hello
if you mean to say goodbye

never say i'm the one
if you dream another

never lock up my heart
if you don't really have the key


i had closed the door upon my heart
and wouldn't let anyone in
i had trusted and loved
but its only hurt me
and that would never be happen again

i had locked the door upon my heart
and tossed the key
i wouldn't let anyone in
as hard and as far as i could
love would never enter my life again
my heart was closed for good ....



in the brightness of sun
show me that you are the one
give me wings so i can fly
enter my heart
break down the wall
i've been prisoner, can't you see?
break my chains
and set me free
release my soul held deep within
i'm ready now
let the love begin ......





listening to : owl city - if my heart was a house